I am on the move … True, countless times I have sat in me ship on a calm sea, no wind to push the sails. But, I am still, indeed, on the move. Mornings have emerged from merciless and endless, nights; I have had no desire to step out of my night, into my light. Such a struggle, a mistresses of depression?
An intimate preoccupation with sleep? It is a false intimacy. On such mornings I am reluctant to look up, fearful that I may see the Jolly Roger flying from the topmast. As of yet, no such flag has flown. Which leads me to a decent question: what kind of a flag am I flying, up above the ship?
When I am sailing across the Seven Seas (which I’ve never done before, but is sounds good), seafaring men and women always take note of what flag I am flying.
And I hope that they see that I am a good man, not afraid to fight for what is good, what is noble, what is honorable. I hope they see that I am not a pirate; for I am a non-pirate. If you were to hang out with pirates like Blackbeard, Thomas Tew, Henry Every, William Kidd … you might hear such perspectives as:
- I’m a pirate. I’m my own captain.
- A friend can betray you, but an enemy will always stay the same.
- Land was created to provide a place for boats to visit.
- If ye can’t trust a pirate, ye damn well can’t trust a merchant either.
- A pirate is for life, not just for Christmas.
- Take what you can, give nothing back.
I am like a pirate in that I am a swashbuckling soul. Adventure, which is at the core of “swashbuckling”, is profound: because adventure depends on what the adventure is about, and how the adventure is carried out. Here are some contrasts, for me, when it comes to what a pirate is about, and what I am about:
- A pirate, his own captain? That doesn’t work in a healthy marriage;
- A “friend can betray you … an enemy will always stay the same”? I want to be a man who changes for the better … not stays the same; and friends? Yes, they will let you down; but you will let them down, as well;
- “If ye can’t trust a pirate, ye damn well can’t trust a merchant either”? Ahhh, the power of rationalization;
- “A pirate is for life, not just for Christmas”? It would get old living a life of violence, selfishness, greed, lying, thievery, doing the same thing over and over and over … always wondering who is going to betray you;